First Love

Like the usual, I spend one of my boring days either reading novels or surfing the net.

I came across a video post entitled crazy little thing called love- Thai movie about young love.

Naturally curiosity got me so I clicked on the video.

The next thing I know I became obsessed and I’m trying to download a full copy.

It made me think, had I ever experience this kind of thing?

I'm in my late twenties and still am a certified NBSB (no boyfriend since birth).

Not that I'm complaining. It just made me think... WHAT IF???

I surely can't answer right now.

Maybe someday I will.

Hopefully I can watch the movie ASAP!

I'm dying to see it!

sunday night out

1 margarita rose+

1 ocean margarita +

2 strawberry- mango margarita =
NO way!!! hahaha

I found out that my alcohol limit is 4 margaritas! Margarita rose really kicked me! But it was Fun!

my tarot card reading

this is my first time to have a tarot card reading. so before i forget everything, i decided to post it here...

surprisingly i'll end up getting married and this is unplanned. this will happen this year or nxt year. i'll meet him thru a friend. my future husband's name starts w/ an A. the psychic described him as handsome, kind, rich and will love me truly. (naks!) we'll have 3 kids 2 girls and 1 boy. so mama don't worry about my health ok. i'll have babies and i'll die at the age of 86. i'll also meet 2 more guys let me call them R and G. hmmm???

i'll work abroad and i will be wealthy.but if i get married soon i won't be able to work abroad since my husband won't allow me to go. no need to be sad since i'll still be rich in 3 years time. he told me that i've dreamt of numbers and snake but i did not remember the combinations when i woke up. honestly, i think i dreamt of numbers but i really cant remember about the snake. he gave me the combinations. it will be my choice if i'll use those numbers but i can't let other people see those numbers... hehehe sori i wont post it here.

i'm a good friend =). i lend my friends money and sadly some did not pay. talking about friendship!!!! and my rationale for not collecting them: 'magbabayad kung sa magbabayad siya, kung hindi e di hindi'. let me just remind myself that what my present proffession is... COLLECTOR!. one of the ironies in my life. Don't be a loan guarantor.

i have an ESP. i got this from my ancestors who are healers.... not sure about this one but i just need to be careful in cursing other people.

i'm not sure if i posted everything, i'll just post again if ever i remember something.

status: single

I got this email a long time ago, since I'm bored to death might as well post this thing on my blog. maybe this will answer some of your questions or might give you some tips as well, or maybe this is really meant for me... hahaha.

Wala ka pa rin ba, hanggang ngayon?! Darating Din Yun ............

Ilang ulit na bang nangyari sa iyo ito? Ngayon ang kasal ng pinsan mo.Heto ka ang ganda-ganda mo. Naghanda ka talaga dahil minsan-minsan lang ang okasyon sa pamilya nyo. Kadalasan sa mga lamay na lang kayo nagkikita-kitaso ngayong kasal ng pinsan mo, gusto mo namang maging presentable at mapansin nila. Aba, napansin ka nga. Ganito ang tanong ng lahat ng kaanak mo sa iyo..."O ikaw kelan ka ikakasal?" "Sana naman, ikaw na ang susunod na ikasal ano?!" Parang gusto mo na sa susunod na lamay sila naman angsabihan mo ng "Ikaw, kelan ka susunod?" dahil sa inis mo......Huwag kang malungkot. Gusto nga kitang sumaya kaya sinulat ko ito. Hindika dapat malungkot dahil maraming posibleng dahilan bakit hindi ka pa nagkakaroon ng "significant other" at kinakasal hanggang ngayon. Hayaan mo silang mainip sa paghihintay. Basta kung okay ka, okay ka. Hayaan mong tulungan kita mag-isip kung bakit wala ka pa ring asawa hanggang ngayon. Naisip ko na 'yan eh. Maaaring ito yung sampung dahilan kung bakit wala pa ring asawa or boyfriend manlang up to this time:

1. Siguro masyado kang mag-concentrate sa career. Ang nasa isip mp kasi habang hindi ka pa tinatamaan ng palaso ni kupido, hamo na munang mag-concentrate ka sa trabaho mo. Kailangan mong ma-achieve ang full potential mo bago ka mag-asawa, kasi 'pag nag-asawa ka na, tanggapin na natin, iba na ang mga prioridad mo sa buhay. Lagi ng mauuna ang pamilya. Habang feel mo pang lumaban ng lumaban sa rat race at umakyat ng umakyatsa corporate ladder, huwag mong panghinayangan na wala ka pang sariling pamilya. Siguro isa ito sa mga outlook mo sa buhay.

2. Masyadong mataas ang standards mo. Ibaba mo kasi ng konti, baka naman kahit si Jesus Christ hindi ma-achieve yung standards mo. Walang taong perpekto. Kahit naman ikaw di ba? Meron ka ding kapintasan? Baba mo ng konti, yung makatarungang pamantayan lang. Baka naman naghahanap ka ng Brad Pitt eh jologs na jologs naman ang dating mo. Lumagay ka lang sa dapat mong kalagyan. Baka naman naghahanap ka ng kasing yaman ni Zobel eh ikaw naman eh pobre din lang naman. Huwag. Huwag ganoon. Para kang g*go non. Baka naman naghahanap ka ng smart, na gwapo, macho at, mayaman. Ate, kung ganon ang hanap mo, malamang tatandang dalaga ka na talaga. Di lahat binibiga ni Lord. Di bale kung salat sa face value, babawi na lang siguro yung sa baitat sa talino. Kung hindi man sya gwapo talaga, eh pwede pa 'yan bumait lalo. Kung puro face value naman, at salat sa kaalaman or masama ang ugali, manalig ka't ipagdasal mo nalang. Malay mo sa kakadasal mo maawa angDiyos sa'yo, papabaitin Nya pa lalo.

3. Hindi ka lumalabas ng bahay. O baka lumalabas ka nga ng bahay, sa opisina lang naman ang punta mo. Huwag ganon. Sumama ka sa mga kaibigan mo, mag-mall ka, magsimba ka, mag-outreach program ka. Huwag mong panisin at buruhinang sarili mo sa bahay dahil wala talagang makakapansin sa iyo sa dun.Mag-aral ka ng painting, voice lessons, mag gym at Yoga. Imaginin mo kung magka-boyfriend ka ng gym instructor? or di kaya, chef. O di ba cool 'yun?Magliwaliw ka sa bookstores, sa coffee shops, at kung saan-saan pang mataong lugar. Baka sakali mapansin ka doon.

4. Baka naman sobrang tapang mo. Oo nga naman, baka naman sobrang masungitka at natatakot sa iyo ang mga potential suitors mo. Baka dapat kangmaging approachable ng konti. Baka masyadong maangas ang dating mo imbis namatuwa sa iyo matakot. Baka sobrang independent mo, at parang mabubuhay ka ngwala silang lahat. Minsan may epekto rin 'yan. Baka sobrang talino ng dating mopakiramdam nila babarahin mo lang sila pag nakausap ka or baka 'pag pinadalhan ka ng love letter eh i-edit mo ng red ink pen, sobra ka talaga pag gaun ka.. Magkunwari ka kayang t*nga minsan-minsan, tingin mo?

5. Baka naman kasi losyang ka at muka ng matanda, pwede ring amoy bombayat sibuyas ka na hindi mo lang alam. Oo nga naman, minsan naman titigan mo yung itsura mo sa salamin at i-try mong amuyin yung kili-kili ng shirt mo afteroffice hours. Mag-ayos ka paminsan-minsan ok lang kung pangit ka,eh kung pangit ka na ba talaga eh, no amount of make up can change that. Pero at least pwede ma-enhance ng konti. Or 'di kaya kung mapera ka naman, pwedeka na ring magparetoke. Try mo lang.

6. Baka naman hinahanapan pa ni Lord ng ribbon ang para sa iyo.Natatandaan ko ang sabi ng kaibigan ko. Blessing daw from the Lord ang mga boyfriends.O eh baka naman hinahanapan pa ni Lord ng magandang ribbon yung regalo mo. Kasi baka daw 'pag hindi maganda ang packaging i-reject mo.

7. Baka naman nagtitipid sa toll fee yung para sa iyo. Malay mo kasi taga-Norte yung para sa iyo eh mahal naman ang toll fee. Baka nagtitipid dumaan sa walang toll kaya medyo natatagalan.

8. Baka naglakad yung para sa iyo. Parating na 'yon kaya lang mahal ang gasolina so naglakad na lang papunta sa iyo. Besides, walking is good for the heart daw. Baka sa kakalakad naligaw na. Ito pa namang mga taong ito, hindi magtatanong kung hindi pakiramdam nila naliligaw na sila.

9. Baka naman sadyang torpe lang yung para sa iyo. Baka naman nag-iipon pang lakas ng loob o di kaya nag-iisip pa ng magandang tiyempo. Bakatalagang hindi lang siya makapag-salita dahil sobrang mahiyain niya. Baka naman dapat makiramdam ka rin ng konti kasi talagang deadma ang dating nito. Bakadapat tinatanong ng unti-unti.

10. Baka naman talagang for single blessedness ka. Ipagdasal mo. Bakanaman kasi pinapagod mo ang sarili mong kakaisip bakit you're still single eh hindi naman kasi marriage ang plan ni Lord for you . Paminsan-minsan magtanong ka kasi sa Kanya baka naman ikaw ang naliligaw. Baka naman ikaw ang nagtitipid. Baka naman kasi ikaw ang torpe at masungit. Baka namankasi ikaw ang problema. Gasgas man, pero sasabihin ko pa rin. Darating Din Yun. Kung para sa iyo, para sa iyo. Kahit iwasan mo eh kung para talaga sa iyo, lalapit at lalapit yan....

Goodluck kaibigan...

"Maybe some women aren't meant to be tamed. Maybe they're supposed to run wild until they found someone -- just as wild -- to run with."

"You've got brains on your head, you've got shoes on your feet. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose."

i'm back with brida

Brida by Paulo Cuelho

Finally after so many months I just finished reading this book. Haha! People close to me knows that it would only take me hours to finish one whole book. I’m also wondering why it took me so long to finish reading this. By the way, I would like to thank Ays for the book.

Some lines worth remembering:

‘How will I know who my soulmate is?’
‘By taking risk, by risking failure, disappointment, disillusion, but never ceasing in your search for love. As long as you keep looking, you will triumph in the end.’

‘Life is so complicated.’
‘You have to take risks, follow some paths and abandon others. She remembered Wicca telling her about people who followed certain paths only to prove that weren’t the right ones, but that wasn’t as bad as choosing a path and then spending the rest of your life wondering if you’d made the right choice. No one could make a choice without feeling afraid.’

Life is about making mistakes.
Never be afraid of making mistakes
‘Never be ashamed. Accept what life offers you and try to drink from every cup. All wines should be tasted, some should only be sipped, but with others, drink the whole bottle.’

‘How will I know which is which?’

‘By the taste. You can only know a good wine if you have first tasted the bad one.’

‘People give flowers as presents because flowers contain the true meaning of
Love. Anyone who tries to possess a flower will have to watch its beauty fading. But if You simply look at the flower in a field, you will keep it forever, because the flower is part of the evening and the sunset and the smell of damp earth and the clouds in the horizon’

big mistake

i feel so lonely. i miss the old times. i miss my old self, my friends, my environment. i thought leaving my comfort zone will be good for me. i thought it was the right choice. it would help me grow and be independent, become more mature. it will give me a chance to prove myself. but right now, i feel like the only thing that i proven so far is that i made a very big mistake.

LESSON in LIFE

LESSON in LIFE:never expect.

every year of my bday, i never expect anything coz
I don't want to be hurt that's why i never expect.

it's hard when u're expectations are not always met.
you'll always be bound to be disappointed. quoting
theny "Kelan ba ako di madidisappoint?". i guess the
answer to that is plain and simple.NEVER.